谈情说爱，慢性自杀

唉，红尘……红尘…很多灰尘（什么诗来的？）～～

学长真的很够力，她和令我失望的那个异性朋友的恋情我已经知道了。她今天知道我知道了（乱～），可是她还是要逼供，问我那个男生到底在假期时叫我在学校注意谁。她自己已经知道答案了。我觉得她是要我亲口说出“他喜欢你，要我注意你”。这两个人都令我很吐血。

爱情本来都是很复杂的东西，我才十四岁，拜托饶了我吧！要发姣自己发到爽啦，不要牵扯到我。我的脑袋很小而已，不要折磨我。学长好像要结婚酱紫哦。我希望学长不要再缠我了，她要专研爱情，她自己去专研，别烦我。

我不懂，也不想要懂男生心里想什么，除非我念上心理学系还有得说。爱情哪里这么简单的。看缘分的啦。不要把爱情当游戏，或者当自己生活的全部。不要这么无聊。

不要令我细胞凋零，慢性自杀。

学校很忙！医院也很忙！

今天，家长日、Hari Sivik和Hari Koperasi三管齐下，昨天学校就已经很忙了。我站在一堆堆忙碌的人中，默默地注视着。

早上，到了学校，由八点至九点半都在科学室参加书法比赛。高手如林，我在沙尘枪炮中被埋葬了。

后来，爸爸到班上，等了很久，终于可以跟老师谈谈我的学业。当时我不在场。老师说我美术科和体育科拿B的原因是我认为这些是副科所以不在意。老师啊，话不能这么说。我何尝不想拿A，只是你们这些师者要为难我们而已。你们出的考卷，大概也只有外星人才看得懂吧。

由于双耳有阻塞问题，右耳较严重，爸爸随后带我去KPJ Selangor Specialist Hospital见耳鼻喉专科医生。 医生挖我的耳朵，痛得眼泪快流下来了。一只耳朵九十五令吉。我干脆把耳朵切下来卖算了。右耳恢复百分百听觉，左耳还有阻塞，下星期要复诊，那个医生又不懂要开出什么价了。

多事之秋

今天，由于周六学校要举办三项活动，其中一项是家长日，所以我们都要打扫课室，我和别的女生给抓去科学室做清洁工。科学室的桌子有很多人涂鸦，不懂搞什么的，真讨厌。浪费很多水和肥皂。

下课。买到有点变质的食物。食堂以食物中毒出名，好像要毒死全部学生。我拿着手上的证据，去找执勤老师告状。老师记录个案，可是她说“这种食物本来就是这个味道”……

回到课室。我的铅笔盒被偷。怀疑是进过我班的中五男生干的。出动巡查员搜查。结果真的是在中五男生的书包里。废材。

有趣的一天

昨天畀庭进院，她发烧被怀疑患骨痛热症，希望她能快点出院咯……

今天，我以观赛者的身份跟着华语演讲代表钰润妹妹（林妹妹）到SMK Subang Jaya去参赛，在此要叙述我的见闻。这所学校规划好，而且很“绿色”的感觉。Lab蛮先进，看起来很顺眼。上厕所要记录进出时间，还要拿牌，穿校方准备的拖鞋才能进入（每位同学都一样）。我看了高中组的演讲，多数发音不正确，不过一位我青睐的同学得到第一，为他感到高兴。初中组的比赛不允许外人看，因为赛场拥挤。虽然林妹妹没得奖，可是我们都得到很好的经验。余兴节目就属古筝和武术好看。问答环节我得了一个奖。题目：双红（猜一字），你们自己想答案。

回学校时，我为萧老师指路，因为我的路线可以避开道路收费站（能避则避，荷包缩水呀！）。

结论：好玩。

领悟

1.这次考试成绩不理想，真的很失望。我现在求学时期所拥有的，只有学业。所以，我会努力的。

2.不要浪费可以用来学习的时间。考不理想的心情就像朋友Vickie所说的，想哭又哭不出。哭的时间可以用来读书，所以不要哭了。

3.不要把朋友当作传话者或使者，他们是你的朋友，不是佣人。

4.我曾经不知不觉中伤害了一个朋友，不过相信我，我会用我的真心，补偿他。朋友，抱歉。

5.对于那些性格不好的朋友，你给他一次机会，他还是“江山易改，本性难移”。所以这种人，不需要留一丁点的怜悯心给他，因为你后来会发现，这一切居然是这样不值得。

6.考试不是一切，考试也是一切。

嗯……

今天真的累到～上数学课时努力争取睡眠时间，老师转头去黑板写字时我就赶紧补眠。(还有，国文课因为忘记带书给老师捏……老师很不人道啊……）

婉君美女今天倒大霉，因为学长要参加舞蹈团，硬拉她跟着去，而善良的婉君只好顺从。如果是我，面对霸道的学长，绝不会顺服。简直就是欺负朋友。

傍晚，新订的冰箱运来我家。很大个。黑色的。……

啊，还要窜一件事，我在《中学生》投的稿（征求意见和看法的）被录取，赢到了梦寐以求的刘墉画卡。午睡起来才发现，好兴奋哦！这是第二次得到礼物了。第一次是得到一本书，因为我参加了一个单元，根据所给故事情节完成故事～谢谢《中学生》！我会努力赢奖品的！！！哈哈！

Superheroes

Me and my friends saved the whole class,For Geography and History,some answers are wrong.The teacher didnt know.We got extra marks.Still not happy even if it cheered me up a little.

I stuffed my papers in my desk's drawer.A dark place where microorganisms breed and with the smell of thousand years rotten wood and paper.A place as a refuge.

Must-win attitude

My heart sinks.My results,although no B,still upset me a lot.I am angry,but duno how to release the anger.I found out a good way that is by doing exercises in reference books(thinking:i must score better next time!!)~quite weird way,but at least i didnt kill somebody in school.*One way to reduce anxiety(when teacher hand out papers)is reading Zaid Ibrahim's "In Good Faith".

My friend's fate was worse than mine.She only got 16/50 for English paper 2.I knew her essays are not that bad,so the problem is with the teacher.They said she is racist.I dont care,but i am angry with the marks she gave my friend.

I dont want to go to school.I am better off at home.

The sensitive day

OMG,my results are horrifying!For seni,the officially admitted "useless subject",i got a B.That's the first time i got such lame result.Do you need to pass the art objective exam to become an artist??
*But for the subjects that i felt not confident,it turned out the opposite:acceptable!

I read Zaid Ibrahim's book at school.My teacher gave her opinion:"This guy is very demanding and never satisfied.(coz he always critic our government)"I just smiled and nodded.I am so close to tears when reading his book.He is,definitely,a good to-be leader.PKR is so lucky to have him.I agree with his every idea and comment.

Me and my Indian friend discussed about his book.She touched some sensitive issues.I merely smiled.Feeling afraid for her.Dont know when you'll be caught under ISA.
*school's librarian praised me "very cute"~Muttered 'thanks' although wanting to vomit

D-day

2moro is my d-day.I hate school.And i'm going to get my mid-term test results.Hate it.I did very bad and i hope the papers'll burn themselves like what our forests and swamps did now.haha.Haze.

The rain yesterday helped a teeny-weeny bit in chasing away the haze.If the haze becomes worse or the contagious H1N1 flu spreads further,our dear education department will plan to close the schools.Either one happens,our health minister will have headaches but the students will celebrate.

Really,humans nowadays are destroying the nature slowly and dont even realise it.Now,in M'sia,if you practice open-burning,you'll have to eat yourself or commit suicide coz the fine is about RM50000(i duno if the zeros' are correct).Well done.

I HATE SCHOOL!!!hahaa

Falling apart

Whoosh.I survived the karate lesson 2day.Our senior wanted us to split legs and he counted till 100.Our legs nearly broke.I hope i can grow taller after all this sufferings.At least 165,please.

I was so relieved when i found out my comp isnt being hacked at all.When i came back from granny's home by train,the comp went crazy.

Although it rained just now,the weather's still hot,that's why the initially "very cool" uniform of karate becomes a burden now.And i have to take 3-4 showers per day.The haze is really awesome,hope we would not need to attend school.My residential area's air quality deteriorated,and the reading is 120,means "bad air quality,but u'll still live thru it"....hahaa

I'm still alive

Dont worry,i hvnt experienced any accidents,just that the karate lesson 2day was far too "advanced".Maybe when we go higher in the exams,the trainings become harder.But 2day's training was just okay,so i think the problem is with me.I think i'm weaker 2day.Dunno why.?

When we're doing the basics,i was starting to gulp air into my lungs.The "senior",not the sir,that trained us 2day,maybe felt my weakness and he gave us some easy moves to do.It was better when i relaxed in the rest session.The nightmare came after sir wanted us to practice sparring.Argh.

So,i returned home safely,without any external or internal injuries,and feeling grateful bcoz it ended.After writing this post,i'm going back 2 my granny's home in Johor.Although there's no internet there,but i dont really care as long as there are yummy food and fine tv channels.

重色轻友

世界上就是有很多这样的人。
这样的人很令人讨厌。
他们沉浸在一时代欢乐和甜蜜中，忽略，甚至伤到了朋友。
等到他们不再执迷不悟，回头看看时，
那些曾经在旁扶持和互助的朋友，都一一离开了。

到时，即使请求原谅，或者百般讨好，
挚友也许不会再接受这份友谊了。
所以，做人不要太过分。
爱情不是面包，它只是生命中的一部分。

养生主义

最近，去了两个书展，妈妈都买关于照顾健康的书。她说她到了更年期，是时候多关注健康了。而我们两个小鬼正在发育时期，也是要自己保重。

早上，妈妈到学校教补习，我就做水果沙拉，逼我的肉食弟弟吞下去。当然，你可以凭你的想像去思考我是如何把食物推进他的口里的。我加了一些沙拉酱，可是自己吃了却不怎么喜欢。我喜欢水果自然的味道。

妈妈后来买了一些玉米（整枝的咧），蒸熟后我就吃。玉米利胆、名目、养颜、低血压、低血脂……
然后妈妈煮薏米水。说可以除暗疮。我才不管，吃了就算。

其实，除了注意饮食，内心也要保养，才能健康。遇见我生活里形形色色的小人，把眼睛和耳朵闭起来，因为他们不值得我们去理会。听到任何刺耳的批评，一笑置之。这需要锻炼，心要如止水，而且要念佛，断绝杂念。